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 UNadia ndandimshiye kubamelwane ababehlala phezulu subdivision and bendifike eclinic ndizokubona nje uzalwa. Ibekwe phezu isifuba sikamama wakho, ubuphefumla nzima, isisu sidumbile ithumba elikhulu eliyingozi elincamathele kumqolo.

Ubomi bakho babuqala.

Ubuneminyaka emithathu okanye emine ubudala. Bekusenzeka ngaphakathi Indlela yokungena eyahlula isakhiwo sethu sokuhlala kwiigaraji eziseRue Nicolas UNicole. Ushukume njengependulum kunye neetrestles zakho zokhuni ezincinci ekupheleni kwakho iingalo. Umzimba wakho uqiniswe yisamente eyayikugqume ukusuka eluzwaneni ukuya kutsho ithorax. Ubuncumile, wena Bédé omkhulu njengoko bendikubiza, kwaye undikhuthaze ukuba buya umva kancinci undibonise indlela ohambe ngayo. Ndakuthatha ke mna ezingalweni kwaye ndakuphakamisa.

Uze kusibona eMarcillat. Besine ndikulande kwisikhululo seenqwelomoya saseClermont-Ferrand usuka eMarseille. Wena wandinika lo mfanekiso uqingqiweyo wodongwe, Ibhola enzima ene a ukumba emnyama – inkuthazo yokungena nzulu kwizinto hayi utsho, kunye nemiphetho erhabaxa yokukhusela kumarhamncwa anokubakho. ndithathe le nto njengophawu lokubandezeleka kwakho oye walawula ngandlela thile kwaye undicele ukuba sabelane. Ukusukela ngoko le bhola indikhaphe njengekhonkco phakathi mna nawe. ubungamashumi amabini.

Ihlathi leTronçais kwiAllier. Ndikulahle kwi-armchair kwi-alley ebanzi eyandisiweyo yimithi emide. Besine ndenze amakhulu aliqela eemitha emva koko ndaya phambili ndikushiya ndedwa njengoko ubundicebise. Ukulandela amanyathelo am … wawungasekho i ! Ndikufowunele ixesha elide. Khange uphendule. Ndinexhala, Ndijonge ukuba ekugqibeleni ndikubone ungashukumi kwindlela encinci engekude ye. Kwathi cwaka ixesha elide. Amavumba e-humus axhentsa macala onke evela eU.S. Umoya wancokola ngengubo yamavumba alandelelanayo. Thina zibanjwe ngesandla kwi-drape yezinto eziveziweyo. Ndandisazi ngoko ukuba sasikwicala elinye, abazalwana, Utata nonyana wakhe, ukuphulaphula kunye wamkelekile kwinto eyiyo.

Kule minyaka yokugqibela ibuyele kum ixesha elide iincoko zomnxeba ebesiba nazo, wena nyana wam uSylvain kunye nam notata uGaël njengoko undibizile. Yayimalunga nento owawujongene nayo ngalo mzuzu kwaye idanyazi ethile yexesha elidlulileyo othe wayivusa ngolonwabo. Yintoni elungileyo iinkumbulo. Ndisaliva ilizwi lakho elinzima, elitsalayo kobo busuku bubude. Akuzange kubekho zigwebo esele zenziwe. Ubukhangela yokuthetha ukuze ukuthetha ngokuchanekileyo nangokucacileyo kuthethe okubalulekileyo. Kwaye ukuba ngamanye amaxesha amagama athile agqithise ingcinga yakho ukuze azifumane elungelelene ukungazinzi phakathi kobuhle nobuvuvu xa kuthelekiswa nokwangaphambili, ibiyi ngesizathu esihle, leyo yenguqulelo entsha xa uthelekisa nalapho ubukhona, wena uvakalelo lwento eyenzekayo. Kwaye wawunjalo, rhoqo phambili, wena ngubani ngokwasemzimbeni akazange asebenze. Ndikhumbula imixholo ethile eyathi yavela kwiincoko zethu ezifana nezo zendalo, yokuma kwegcisa kodwa kwakhona ubuhlobo kunye nothando – ukuthanda imizimba, uthando lwezidalwa. Wena wayebathanda abantu. Ubungafane ukhalaze kwaye ibindim omfutshane incoko eyayinokuqhubeka iiyure neeyure.

Kwaye ukuba wemka ngobu busuku 18 okanye 19 EyeDwarha, kukubaleka imeko yakho yokwenyama njengendoda ebandezelekileyo impilo yayisiya isiba mandundu, kodwa ikwakukuqhubeka nomsebenzi wakho ngapha nangapha, wena, umfuni wenyaniso nenyaniso, uthunywe ngamandla womelele kakhulu kunawe, umnxeba ombi owuvileyo. ubuhlekisa, nomdla wokwazi, ndinomdla kwizihloko endinokuthetha ngazo, izihloko ezinxulumene ne ubuhle, isayikholoji kunye nezomoya. Ubunoburharha ngamanye amaxesha eneenkcukacha, ngamanye amaxesha inkathazo, wena mdiba imnandi, uhlakulele ilizwi elilungileyo ngobulumko kwaye ungaze ube buhlungu. Wena mthandi wobomi uphelelwe lithemba ngalo mzimba uniphathe kabuhlungu kangaka, Ukugqobhoza kwakho kujonge ngamehlo e-amangile kwaye uncumo lwakho oluhlekisayo lwandibethelela kwiingcango zesivalo Jonga umphefumlo wakho usebenza ekuhlanguleni abo baqhelekileyo ngokungaqhelekanga ekuhambeni kwabo akazange aphile.

Ukususela emphefumlweni kuye emphefumlweni usecaleni lam. Xa uye waba ukhululwe kwingubo yakho yesikhumba kwakusemva kweeyure ezimbalwa emva kokufowuna oko sakudlulisa ukuze udityaniswe nomngcwabo kayisemkhulu.

Ilizwi elinye lokugqibela : “uxolo”. Yazi mna cela uxolo ngokungabikho rhoqo.

Sala kakuhle eGrand Bédé, unyana wam, USylvain .

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 Utata wam wasweleka
 kwaye andinako ukuzibamba iintlungu zam.
 Irosari yeenkumbulo kunye
 uyaqhekeka kukuphuthelwa .

 Inkwenkwe encinci kwigumbi eliphezulu
 wabeka ii-capsules zakhe kunye neembaleki zakhe ezivela kwiTour de France. 

 I " igargote " iimpahla zabantwana
 sisitya esinomhlwa
 " frugers - zithandwa zam " iyawa kwiinkungu
 ngenkangeleko yasekwindla .

 Kuya kuvela imini entsha
 umsonto ohonjiswe ngeeperile zombethe.

 Izinyathelo ezenza umgangatho ukrekreke
 ziyindlela yokugqibela yobukho bakho .

 Nous ne retournerons plus les crêpes
 ekhatshwa zizikhalo zovuyo zoyena mncinane .

 Ukubhabha kwamarhanisi asendle
 ayisayi kuphinda ilindelwe njengakuqala.

 I " amahashe amane " IRenault
 asisayi kuphinda sinxibe iibhayisekile zethu .
 
Ixilongo liya kuthi cwaka
 emva kocango lwegumbi lokulala  .

 Iphepha liyaphethwa
 ngoku kukho ubomi .

 Ukushisa imifuno kunye neeminerali kwi-oven
 ukuze amakhandlela okubalulekileyo aphakame .

 Ukuwela ifoloko kufanelekile
 ukuba sesichengeni kwenzeke .

 Masibambe isiphunzi senkumbulo
 kwaye ngaphandle kokukhawuleza idrowa iyavala .

 Masibe kukukhanya kunye nomoya oqaqambileyo
 ukuze izandla ezihlangeneyo zibe njalo .

 Ulumkile kwaye uvule oko kuza
 masibe ngabarhwebi bobuhle .

 Inikelwa ngokuthe ngqo kwinto eyiyo makube ngumqala 
kunye nolwimi lokutya okutsha .

 Masicule kumoya omtsha wasentlakohlaza
 iandante yomoya okhululekileyo .

 Samkela ngentliziyo elungeleyo
 amandla ehlabathi eliyimfihlakalo eqanduselweyo .

 Umgcini wexesha kunye nentaka yenyaniso
 Ndithetha nawe .

 Abo balandelayo, abantwana bam ,
 Masikhulule ibhola yethu yobomi kwaye sihambe  .

 Ngaphandle koloyiko, intliziyo ibhinqe uvuyo lwamalungisa
 masibe ziindiza nengqolowa yesivuno esizayo  .


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Igumbi lali shushu. Ityali enomhlwa yayilele phantsi. Besine sakhulula izihlangu zethu. Mna nomntakwethu sayila esi sakhiwo somthi kunye nendawo. Kwakukho amacandelo amaninzi.

Abalinganiswa ngokukhawuleza bazifumana iindawo zabo. Abanye baye bazihlanganisela phratries kunye abanye ngababini. Ndizibone sendindedwa andazi kutheni. A umoya olula udlule kwigumbi. Kulapho ndabhabha phezu kwezixeko kwaye amaphulo. Ndihleli phezulu ndacinga ngomsebenzi wethu. Kwakukho konke. Kwaye kwathatha lo mgama ukuqonda ukuba ubomi bam bubhaliwe njengangaphambili, apho phambi kwam. Ndacinga ke ukuba angenza ntoni na kwenzeke kum. Kwakhona ukuze ndikwazi ukugqobhoza ndimithe yonke lento bekunyanzelekile Ndiyawazi unobangela. Kwaye bendikhangela, kwaye bendikhangela, … ixhomekeke ku yiva ndiwathetha lamazwi ebengathi ndibethwa ngumoya engaqondakaliyo. … Ebendibangela. … Yayichazwa ngokulula kwaye njalo Kucacile ukuba ndizinike ixesha lokubhala ezi zivakalisi zimbalwa.

Banyamekele abazali bethu

yiba nemfesane

nixhasane

ukunandipha ubomi

ukonwaba, mnandi, ndonwabile

zizenzekela kwaye zezendalo eluthandweni

ukuba bahlukane, kakhulu kunokwenzeka, ubudlelwane kunye nempahla

ukuba nesisa

ube nokuziphatha okusesikweni

thatha inyathelo elifanelekileyo

ninyamekelane

lawula iimvakalelo zakho

sihlala sibona iimeko zengqondo yethu

kwaye xa ingcinga iphakama

thumela lo myalezo kubantwana bethu .

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Imfundo yabantu abadala .

Hlala kwi Apha .

Tama i ufile .

Bukela ukusuka phezulu .

Ukuba ngumdali we iinkcubeko .

Hlala e ukwazi inkqubo yokwazi : ukuqonda – imvakalelo – cinga (umfanekiso, umbono) – uncamathiselo – ukuvelisa ;  okubangela ulonwabo okanye ngoko ke ukudana kukubandezeleka, ngoko ke kufuneka umsebenzi kwi ukubandezeleka .

Zilolonge i “umbono ongeneyo”, ukuqonda ngoko nangoko ukuba yintoni na .

Ukuba phakathi uvuyo lokuba sehlabathini, kwi ” ingxoxo ” phakathi kolwazi isininzi kunye namava okuzazi, Ingxoxo engenasiphelo, ngaphandle kokubona injongo kunye neengozi .

Ukubala ukurhoxa phezu kwakho .

ukuba ku unxulumano olulungileyo necosmos .

Ukuba ngummi we ihlabathi .

Yiba nobulumko, lawula indlela ubani acinga ngayo, ukuba luncedo kwabanye, ukuba yinxalenye ihlabathi .

Jonga i umhlaba ngokungathi uyayibona okokuqala .

ukuba ku isimo sengqondo sokungazi .

Yazi ukuba ifilosofi inika indlela kumsebenzi wefilosofi .

thatha ujongo lucid malunga nobume bengcinga .

velisa kwezinye i ” zicingele ” .

ukuba kwi incoko kunye nohlengahlengiso oluyilayo kwenye .

ibe yi indawo yokugcina yonke imiboniso eyenziwe kwixesha elidlulileyo .

Ukuqonda, ehambelanayo kunye nengqiqo .

zithobe phambi kokuba kuthethwe okanye kubhaliweyo .

Phambi kwe ulwimi luzibuza ukuba lithetha ukuthini, into amele ayithethe kunye nento anokuyithetha yithi .

ukunyamezela kwaye khusela inkululeko yokucinga .

Ngena kwimvakalelo yolwandle ngokuziphatha njengoRené Char esenzela yena : ” Kwimeko nganye yokuwa kobungqina imbongi iphendula ngekamva eliqaqambileyo ” .

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 Andazi ukuba ndizalwa ngubani
 nokuba liyintoni na eli hlabathi
 okanye ndingubani .

 Ndiyibona le minyaka yokukhanya indingqongileyo
 kwaye undifumanele ingubo
 kwinqanaba lobu bukhulu
 ngaphandle kokwazi ukuba kutheni ndilapha kunokuba kwenye indawo .

 Andazi ukuba kutheni eli xesha lincinci ndilinikwe ukuba ndiphile
 ulele apha ezinyaweni zam
 zigcinwe kususela kunaphakade
 kwinto eyandulelayo
 yaye yintoni eya kundilandela .

 Ndibona kuphela okungapheliyo
 macala onke
 njengothuli olujikelezayo kwimitha yelanga
 njengefom icinywe yifom elandelayo .

 Into endiyaziyo
 kukuba kufuneka ndife
 kodwa into endingayaziyo
 kukufa kanye oku endingenakukuphepha
 nto leyo indibizela ebomini
 njengonyana wolahleko
 ezingalweni zikatata
 kweli hlabathi liyimfihlelo
 apho umsantsa wezithembiso
 usibizela ukuba sibe yile nto besihlala siyiyo
 kwigumbi lomtshato lokuqala
 umthunzi womthunzi wakho
 ikamva lam .


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Umntu uphila ternary. Ungumzimba, ingqondo kunye nomoya.

Umzimba, le nto siyibonayo kuthi, Yi ibuthathaka kwaye inokonakala.

I-psychic yinqanaba eliphakathi. Nguye intshukumo, ngokweemvakalelo nangengqondo. Iyaguquguquka. Asikwazi ukwakha kuye. Ingqondo icacisa izinto. Isusa imiqobo kwaye inako ukwenza kufumaneke kwizinto zokuzazi kodwa hayi ekuvukeni kwethu, kuloo meko yentlalontle kunye nokumanyana nento eyiyo, ekugqibeleni ukuzaliseka kwimfihlelo engenakuqondwa yoko kusiqhubela nzulu ezantsi yobume bethu, lo mzuzu, oku “viridity” ukusebenza, njenge uyila uHildegard weBingen.

Umoya okanye isiphelo somphefumlo, okanye intliziyo, yi leyo ikufuphi kwaye inxibelelana nehlabathi eliphakamileyo. Ingqondo iyaqonda ukuba ayinakonakala. Mkhulu, eqaqambileyo kwaye echwayitile.

Umntu ufana nesibane seoli kuquka nomzimba wesibane, ioli kunye nentambo iya kuba imigangatho yayo emithathu. i umzimba uya kuba yinto ye-terracotta yesibane, isitya esiethe-ethe kwaye iyimfuneko ngaphandle kokuba inkqubo yokuzikhulisa ibingayi kuqala. Ingqondo okanye yengqondo iya kuba yioli, intshukumo isafobe, ye iimvakalelo, ubutyebi kunye nobuhle bokuba, kwinto eyondlayo. umsonto iya kuba ngumoya, eyona ndawo inokuvutha umlilo wobuthixo.

Zonke ezi nxalenye zenza umntu ngaphakathi Khangela imvisiswano nangona kunjalo inqanaba phakathi kwabo, umsonto Umoya yeyona nto iphambili kwimfuno yethu.

Ingqondo le ndawo yandiswe ngokungapheliyo, oku kukhanya, olo vuyo lulawula imozulu embi yobukhona nako konke iintlungu zokuyikhokelela ekufezekisweni kwayo.

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( Umbhalo uphefumlelwe ngokukhululekileyo nguJacqueline Kelen )